Well I fucking love you too:) We probably could ! 

Duh. why?

Dear followers,

I would just like to introduce myself. I’m Alex and I have electric blue hair. I smell like chlorine ALL THE TIME. I’m awkwardly tall and stick out my tongue when I smile.I have an obsession with tattoos and piercings. I never go to school. I want to make a difference in the world somehow. I’m the biggest neat freak. I’d prefer being by myself. I would die without my friends. I hate girls, there’s only a selected few I can deal with. I’ve had the same best friend since 3rd grade. I’m the girl next door you heard about in songs. I’m deathly afraid of snakes. I believe everything happens for a reason. I’ve been fucked over way too many times. I’ve learned your past shapes your future. I have the most fucked up family ever but I wouldn’t trade them for anything.  My favorite thing do is either sleep or eat. I literally wish I was a mermaid. And yes I do listen to music other than the top 10 list on itunes. I sometimes have breakdowns because I bottles things up forever. I want to find my prince like the ones I use to read about when I was a little girl. So I’m Alex and no Alex is not a boys name.

Sincerely,

Alex 

Thanks doll :) 

Thank you :) 

Dear probably no one,

You know what sucks? Being the girl who’s always there for everyone else, and the one time I need someone to be there for me no ones there. I’m sick and tired of asking everyone else if their okay when no one ever asks how i’m doing. And if someone does asks me if i’m okay and I say yes. I want someone to look me in the eyes and say no your not. I want to stop acting like the happiest girl in the world when inside I feel like I’m having a nuclear war with myself. I don’t want to be the nice girl anymore. The girl everyone steps all over because they think I’m strong enough to stand up for myself. I don’t want to be girl that gets heart broken every time because I believe stupid pathetic teenage boys.I need to stop worrying about everyone else’s problems and worry about my own. I’m not going to get stepped on anymore and I’m tired of being the one  gets their heart smashed into a million little pieces. You know what? I’m done.

Sincerely,

Alex. 

Dear followers, 

February 14 = single awareness day or when boyfriends attempt to suck up to their girlfriends. Who came up with Valentine’s day ? Was Valentine’s day made for Hallmark to get money ? Was it made to make single people feel like complete shit about themselves ? Or was it made for all the couples to buy each other chocolate and teddy bears? WHO AND WHY DID THEY COME UP WITH THIS DAY ?! In my opinion, if your in a relationship you should treat your girlfriend good EVERYDAY not just once a year. When your in love it’s should be like Valentine’s day everyday. Personally, I think Hallmark cards are the biggest waste of money. I HATE walking into the store and there’s two aisles full of the heart shaped shit and I think to myself “What’s wrong with me?”  I want someone to write me a long sappy love letter. Not a stupid ass card made by a total stranger. I feel like everyone around me is happy and in love, but then there’s me. A girl who looks happy on the outside but in the inside seriously questions what the fuck is wrong with me? The next question I ask is what is love ? Our society and my personal life has gotten me to believe there is no such thing as love. I’ve never had a stable dad. Which has made me to believe that marriage is a complete joke. I don’t want to get married and it’s really sad that my parents made me think that. I wish I was born in a different generation, where girls were treated like ladies. When it was considered rude to cuss in front of us. When they held ever door open for us, with the right intentions. When a “date” was paying for our movie tickets, not just a place to hook up. When being in a relationship took actual commitment. I don’t want just another douchebag, that won’t treat me right, I want an old-fashioned gentleman. Hopefully in this hell hole called earth there’s still that type of guy. I hate Valentine’s day. I want to be in love, and have everyday be just like Valentines day. And for those of you who are in a relationship, remember to treat him or him just as well on the other days. 

Thanks for listening to me rant,

Alex(alexisnotaboysname)

Dear Santa,

What do you want for Christmas? That’s the question everyone asks everyone in the month of December. Every teenage girls wants a boyfriend. My question is: why does everyone want a boyfriend ? I mean anyone could get a boyfriend if they really wanted to. But it’s not about wanting a boyfriend it’s about wanting someone you can fall in love with. Everyone craves for love so much but in reality if you want to fall in  love it will come to you. So Santa I don’t want a boyfriend, I want him. Not because I want a boyfriend because I want to fall in love with him. And if not then it’s not meant for me to fall into.

Sincerely,

Alex(Alex is not a boy’s name)

You know what I fucking hate the most in this world ? PEOPLE. All everyone does is talk shit. And no I’m not talking shit right now, I’m stating facts. Why do people have to be so rude all the time? I try to be nice to just about everyone. But still there’s bitches who are rude to me for no apparent reason. Does peace still exist ? I doubt it. Just like love their both myths. The human species can never have peace with with each other. Especially society today. You know what else I hate? When people judge you when all they know about you is maybe your first name. Even my best friends can’t completely judge me because no one has walked on my path. Same for me, I just can’t just be like “oh that bitch is crazy” when in reality her mom died when she was a kid. You never can know the complete story of a person. Yeah you can try to make a guess, but you will never know the truth. So next time you try to judge or be a bitch to someone. JUST DON’T. 

There’s two different types of girls. There’s the girls that fit in perfectly with society. Then there’s girls who are in simple terms, different. I’m going to let you decide which girl I am. Would you rather have a girl who listen to rap and hip hop just because it’s the highest on the charts or would you rather have a girl that listens to actual music ? Music that just doesn’t talk about having sex or getting high. What about what she look’s like? There’s girls who try constantly or there’s girls who care more about the inside than the outside. Do you want to fall in love with a girl or make love with a girl ? Are you the type of guy to choose a girl for who has the most likes on their profile picture ? Or do you choose the girl who is beautiful but doesn’t have time to take pointless pictures of themselves to put them on facebook. Do you want girls that have drama in their life 24-7 or do you want a girl that doesn’t give a shit about everyone else? Would you rather have the girl who’s going to stay in their small town forever? Or would you want the girl who’s bigger than this town and will actually make a difference in this world?  I hope there are still guys out there that find that girl #2 is just as beautiful and perfect as the others. Because if not society officially is fucked. 

Dec. 9. 2011 

Dear whoever the fuck reads this,

You must be asking yourself what the hell does PAC mean ? Paige + Alex + Cara = PAC. PAC = the three amigos, the three best friends that anyone could have, the three musketeers, the three little pigs ( Even though Cara & I aren’t very small..), the three stooges, or in simple terms my best friends. Do my calculations make any sort of sense to you? Cara, Paige, and I have been best friends since sixth grade, six years now. To be honest right now I fucking hate girls. But Cara and Paige are the only two girls I could be with for a decent amount of time before I just want to kill myself. We’ve grown up together. We have seen each other faults and also our growths. I’ve had the best times of my life with these two. I am so happy that ,who ever the hell made this place called earth, led Paige & Cara into my life. Because without them I don’t know where I would be today. They have been threw hell & back with me. I know they are the two girls to be by my side till the end. Did I mention PAC could be the shit outta anyone ? YEAH WE CAN BITCH SO DON’T FUCK WITH US. No names to be said.. Anyways I love you both so much and you girls are beyond the word ‘best friend’. PAC* always. 

<3 Alex (which is not a boy’s name) 

Dec. 7. 2011

7-11 weird.. Oh I’m Alex and no Alex is not a boy’s name. I hope one day at least one person (who’s life must be pretty boring) will read this. I’m sixteen. And no nothing cool or a miracle has happened. Being 16 is just like being 15. If anything it’s a bad thing.  I don’t want to grow up. I turn 17 in April. April six to be exact, and from here till the clock hits midnight on my birthday I want something insane to happen, something you would only see in a movie. I want my life like an 80’s movie. But no.. I’m Alex and nothing cool ever happens to me. Just one time can I have a relationship like Allie and Noah’s ? Because I’m starting to think love doesn’t exist. A long time ago, well about a year ago I thought I was ” in love” but I was terribly wrong. Looking back on the whole Jack saga, I think I liked that fact that I believed I “loved” him, but really I didn’t. Now I realized I want more than a boy friend. I want a best friend. But it’s me, Alex, (not a boy’s name) and I highly doubt that magical thing called “love” will exist in my little world. Thanks for listen to me bitch about being 16. 

-Alex (not a boy’s name)